- woke up early for school

today was a lame day. i got nothing educational done on my own. i need to do my homework more and i need to study. i need to push everything away that is distracting me. not friends but other thing/ i dont knoe what the hell im talking about but i knoe it must be done. i just gone it a fight not even a minute ago on crap. ugh. i hate getting into fights with people i love. i dont knoe why farrah is mad at me, she gave me a reason but i didnt even say anything about him or to him. ugh. it will hopefully die down by tomorrow. if it doesnt, then well... shit. it is my 2month/3week/4day anniversary of anticutting. whoo hoo. chickie checked my wrists today and there were no new ones so im like see bitch, i dont! lol. that was pretty much what happened. i got switched to mr. inness. he is so stupid. i want to get switched out of his fuggin class more than anything. i have to go eat out with the family tonight which sucks balls cause i hate my family more than you can knoe. nothing much happened. i wish i could tell you something like i almost got ran over by a semi truck on the way to get the mail... but...sadly..that didnt happen. better luck next time..

and thats folgers in your cup my dear.

i cannot express how this day sucked. the beginning was fine but when i got home, it sucked. got in a fight with my parents and i got hit really hard by my fucking father. then i found out that my friend broke her promise to me about something that i dont think i can say. and she is ruining a wonderful relationship by doing this. i still love her but i really wish that she would stop hurting my friend. i dont like to see him crying his eyes out for the person he loves. at the moment i am rather perturbed by her and it makes me sick how cruel she is being. but like i said, i still love her, but shes really upsetting me at the moment. i hope you all find love. cause its really hard to find. and if you find it at this day and age, youre FUCKING lucky. god damn i feel so bluh. goddamnfuckshit

and thats folgers in your cup my dear

brice gramm

today i woke up and called malia and told her i was coming over and everything. that was fun. we then went to go to kmart and get josh and beth a birthday card. we got the card and we wanted to do more so we went around town to look for come safety cones. it  was fun. we got 9. we got a really nice one and we just wrote that as a card and just refunded our card.  after that we got home and had to hide the cones so me and joy and malia had to put cones up in the attic. which was so cool.  after that we just watche tv. that was that. my brother later picked us up and he took me and malia to the skatepark early cause i heard that the band people ( brice and tyler ) were going to be playing around five so we went. we were there and this guy named shane parker was really rude and i didnt like him. they made bad comments. but i didnt say anything cause i dont really talk to him so im saying really bad things in my head, like " i hope you get bitten by a semi-poisonous spider ." after that me and malia just hung out and people came. the bands came and tyler and brice were really good. i hung out with marlena bussey and maddie bowen. they are really nice people. farrah then came and i talked to her. there was drama at the skatepark but i think it was personal so...yeah... after that since it rained and not everyone got time to do the whole competition, like tyler and some other people. they just said that the competition would be postponed AGAIN till tomorrow. so yeah.  brices mom picked us up and i helped them put things up. me and heather talked and we were having bad mental pictures of what we heard, then this retarded person was blowing bubbles and chasing and eating them.  we were like WTF. lol. after that brices mom went to my house cause my dad was being totally ASIAN. and said i couldnt stay at his house till he meets a parent. cause he is SOOOO ASSSIAAN. i mean, asianss...the only thing they are good for are asian restaurants like chinese buffets. after that we went to eat at a CHINESE BUFFET and that was cool. we all went and asians were looking at me and im like. . .  no, stop staring you stupid asian chinks. lol. but not really. i was slurping down noodle things and it went really fast and they started laughing and i laughed while drinking and bills like " they dont knoe CPR cause they are asian" omg, that was one of the funniest things that happened. lol. me and heather were mad cause everyone had noodles but us. it was cool. they put noodles in brices hair and it was rather funny. and i slurped down noodles in my drink. it was gross. this guy thought i was asian but i told him i was hawaiian, and hes like FLIED LICE IS GOOD. and im like yes, FLIED LICE IS GOOD. fried rice is what he was going at i think. lol. after that we left an theh lady that looked like a guy gave me a mean look cause we didnt give her a tip. they didnt do shit. i had to get my own refill. lol.  after we went outside and during one of the time farrh got a bouncy ball thingy. we then juust hung out outside and then they left so me and brice and tyler walked home  but we same some peole so we decided to hang out with them; lauren, JOSH( happy birthday ), kaite, leiah,  ashley, and other kids. yeah, that was nice. we played in the rain and i splashed laurens vaginal area with water and she didnt even knoe. and yeah.... after that we came to brices house and listened to music. and on the way to his house we just talked about random shizzit and we talked to the gate person who was rather nice. and then we later got the stuff out of the TAHOE. and yeah. waffle house at noon tomorrow...or actually today since it is exactly midnight. yeah... well goodbye

-C.J.

yesterday was rather neat might i say. after school i went to hang out with megan, chickie, andy, and farrah. that was fun. chickie megan and andy and tyler all got in megan malissas car and me and farah were like fuck that bitch, no. so i hung out with farrah. she is really neat. i love her. me and farrah just got juice boxes and just went to hang out with chickie and everyone at her house when we thought they were home. well we hung out there for awhile but for some reason we left i dont knoe why though. aft er that i went to megans house and farrah to hers cause she had to do something. megans boyfriend was at chickies for some reason, i really do feel sorry for him. so megan was waiting for him to leave cause she said she was gonig to sleep alll day. which was a LIE! hah. lol. and she was waiting for him to leave.  so we went to farrahs house cause chickie left for work so it was me, robert, andy, and farrah. robert left after a forever ago, and we called megan to "babysit". rober t had to leave cause farrrah said something about baby sitting so i just played along and what not. megan then joined us and we were finding ways of going to waffle house cause we didnt want to walk and we called gotta git taxi and this  asian lady was screaming at me and it was just rude. lol. she was like, its not five dollla! not five dolla! so i just hung up on her. lol. we then got a ride from farrahs dad since he was home and megan was looking for a shirt even though it was just waffle house. farrah told andy and everything and we werent sure if he was going to come. so we went to waffle house and ordered cause we didnt knoe he was coming, but we were hoping he would. lol. and then he showed up. me and megan were making music. it was excellent. we then ate and that was good. cause we were so hungry. after that we went to winn dixie and i dragged farrah to the other side and shes like YOU ARE CRAZY cause we could have gotten hit and everything then she just ran to the other side and left me. i was like wtf.  lol. megan and farrah got a pickle at winn dixie i was like gross. we started walking  and i made a song and a rap about someone and it was the best. megan even said so. it was mad cool. lol.we then went to hersheys which was not that great. we hung out there and went outside to see many boggies. i made another song. we then went to the big circle platform thingy and we just talked after me and megan had to go back to wash the pickle juice off. lol. we decided to go see some people and went to simons and brices home. simon wasnt there, same with jacob. so we went back to brices and we just sat in his room and waited. me, megan, farrah, and andy just sat there and we saw tyler. cause hes staying there while his mom is out of town. and then brice came in and we just sat and talked. we made fun of the stuck ordeal and he was like what? he didnt knoe what we were talking about it till i actually said what the whole thing was. lol. we all went downstairs and watched the music people do there thing and that was nice. i wish i could play guitar. but i cant, so yeah...  me and megan went back in the room and talked about stuff and how we were scared of something that happened. and yeah. scary to the 78698759 power. then people came in and brice turned on the strobe lights, that was the best.

oh yeah... and on the way to brices i saw this dog sign on the wall... it said NO, and it looked like the dog was pooing, and they said a lot of people tried to take it out but no one could so i was like ah, and then i just tore it off, it was soo cool. we then started laughing then broke out into a run. it was funny. we then saw this old woman and they are like hide it! hide it! just incase it was here house th a ti tok it form on the fence...


after the strobe lights he gave me some bitter dominion stickers. that was cool. i like it. i then had to go home. i was hoping i would go to turkey creek but i didnt get to cause NO ONE CALLED ME. it sucked. but im still going to the skate competition.  which will RULE. and then im staying at brices for the night. should be fun. . . 

For every moment..
Of every hour..
Of every minute..
The picture will run through your head
You wont sleep..
Your eyes will never close your eyes...
You will lay in the dark
Hearing the whispers in your head..
You will wonder why they are so quite
Yet there screaming is blocking out all of the sound...
You cant help but feel that they are eating at your heart and soul.

i passed my drug test so i am going to get extra or better privelages so yeah. its wonderful. i thought id fail cause my friends smoked around me but yeah. its not happening. today was cool. malia came to my house after school. she is a SUPERCOOl. ahaha. well yeah. go to the skate competition saturday?? you should. . .  omfg, i love you farrah and chickie. you had faith in me. thank  you. i truly love you both!!!

ugh today pretty much sucked. i woke up late which is usual cause i always am late. then i had to check for the drug test since my parents are giving me one because they are being really asian. so i was nervous so i couldnt go so i just took it to school. later that day i took it to school and took the test... it came out negative. i didnt smoke but my friends did and i was around. i wasnt sure about that whole 2nd hand smoke deal so yeah. i took it again at the doctors office cause well....asians. so yeah. my dad told me that if i am positive on the test...im going to be shipped off to asia. im like what the fuck?!? so if they do, im so fucking going to kill myself. but on another note. yesterday was nice. after school clay, simon, malia, chickie, danny, and JACOB came to my house. malia had to leave cause she didnt tell her mom. we had lots of fun, from the sex and orgies to well...yeah that was pretty much it. oh and tarot cards. yes. i had a LONG TALK with brice and farrah that day and they are taking a break in the relationship unfortunately. but i still dont doubt about their marriage. and yeah. they are going back out soon or i will " have to knife them " ( allison ) i want to do something right now but i dont knoe what. Anna at lunch today was like you knoe who has the coolest hair?? and i was like EVAN DUKE. it was funny cause he really does have the coolest hair in the whole world. STFU. he is a really neat person. too bad he lives in fort walton so i wont barely hang out with him. ...sigh.

- woke up
- talked to chickie and malia
- they couldnt go to the mall with me
- went to mall